steady as she goes

The only reason I need to post.

2009-02-23T05:08:38Z

Congratulations to Heath Ledger, my love, for receiving the Best Supporting Actor Academy Award. Your family looked lovely but it would have been lovlier to see your electric smile and hear your contagious laughter. You are truly loved and missed.

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Been gone a mighty long time

2009-01-09T14:28:28Z

So its been a while, I feel like I've been away from family for moths. *hugs all of you tight* I'm posting via my iPod Touch because it's the coolest iPod ever.

So has anyone else getting hooked on Leverage? Christian Kane yay!!

Ok, fangirling over now. *kisses*

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new heath layout.

2008-08-07T17:33:08Z

I wanted a new layout. Black/White theme. Heath banner that I made from scans from the lovely xena_2001de in hires_hunks. Kudos to her!

My banner is fudgin up the layout a bit. Maddy help me!! Otherwise it looks pretty awesome if I do say so myself. Oh and Oscar Wilde quote for teh win!!

*heath!love* Since I haven't said it on here yet, The Dark Knight rules. So all the anti-folks, please just cool it. Kthnx.

britney song please?????

2008-01-29T15:57:01Z

Does anybody have 'Piece of Me' by miss Britney Spears??

I will have your baby!

insert subject with substance here.

2008-01-02T12:37:53Z

i really need to make a new jensen icon. he one i'm using is dated and ugly. i need a hot one. one jared would salivate over.

in other news, this phone rocks out loud. i'm actually posting this journal entry using my new motorola q. i love this phone. it has internet and email and i'm checking now to get my IMs forwarded to my phone.

so all in all? i'm happy. *hugs flist*

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!! [cuz i have been too tired to drag my ass to the computer to say it!!!!!]

PROB FIXED WITH BACKGROUND.

2007-11-29T04:25:33Z

The background is now showing. Thank god! ♥

he_will_save_me he_will_save_me he_will_save_me he_will_save_me he_will_save_me he_will_save_me

totally new layout. praise me.

2007-11-28T19:03:08Z

So my old one was "Those Winchester Boys". It was blue stripes and pretty blueness.

But now I wanted greens. And I wanted Christensen&Alba. Also known as Awake. This layout is called "And Breathe Me;".

Check it out!!!
he_will_save_me he_will_save_me he_will_save_me he_will_save_me he_will_save_me

A very supernatural x-mas.

2007-11-19T06:23:43Z

This is the episode I have been dreading beyond my wildest dreams. I don't do well with Christmas. I don't do well at all. I cry more than smile because it just isn't a good time for me.

Also, I am seriously considering whther or not I will watch this ep of Supernatural. I just can't do it. I don't know.

I just read the sides for it. Just so I'd see what might happen and everything. And I'm crying.

So there's the answer I guess.

*hugs flist*

Fuckity fuck.

2007-11-16T04:52:31Z

I am just an emotional wreck. Obviously.

Because I cried during TWO parts of Supernatural tonight. TWO. The middle where they were in that room and the end with the...*tearing up*...car.

Fuck. I think I'm gonna go cry again.

Episode review in the works.

HELP PLEASE!

2007-11-13T05:25:52Z

Is buying the companion books for both seasons of Supernatural really worth it?

I mean, I kinda want them...but is it really worth it?

I just...I wanna lick him in the worst way.

2007-11-09T04:34:44Z

I swear I'm a Sam!girl...but I mean, come on!

Dean in that tuxedo?

Come on! My ovaries are dying cuz I wanna put him on top of my wedding cake with a mini-me on it.

And I don't even plan on getting married. Heh.

Dean...honey. You look damn good. I would love to make some bad decisions with you LOL.

Do this for me! I will be forever in your debt.

2007-11-07T05:04:53Z

View Poll: Which is more hot?

By the way, everyone wave to my loveslave, Marty. *hi*

Fic:Ready to Breathe, SPN Gen

2007-11-02T04:03:30Z

title: ready to breathe.
author:he_will_save_me aka Aurielle
rating: PG-13
genre death!fic, Gen
pairing: None
summary:He’d have to let Dean go because that’s what you do. You let people leave who have to leave.
word count: less than 800
warnings: dead!Dean, angsty!Sammy
author’s note: I get really angsty when I’m depressed so sorry if you have to pull out tissues.
additional notes: at the end of the story.
disclaimer: This is lies, fiction, the definition of ‘not real’.
feedback: The single most orgasmic thing on the planet.
betas/handholders: boheme06 and jenniferkaos without whom I would be up sh!t creek without a paddle. Thanks girls!

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Sam sits in the driver’s seat as he stares at Dean in the rearview mirror. He hadn’t taken his eyes off him in the two hours since his heart stopped except to watch the road as he drives.

cross-posted to spn_dark_vault, to sam_support, and to hwsm_addict(my fiction/graphics community)

Need a beta, please.

2007-10-22T17:27:01Z

I just finished this lil one-shot fic.

title: every breath we drew was hallelujah.
author:he_will_save_me aka Aurielle
rating: PG-13
genre death!fic, Gen
pairing: None
summary: Sam couldn't save Dean and he dies after one year.
word count: less than 800
warnings: dead!Dean, angsty!Sammy
author’s note: I get really angsty when I’m depressed so sorry if you have to pull out tissues. Title taken from lyrics to ‘Hallelujah’.

It's all done but I need a beta to check it for me so I can post it. It would be great if I can post it before work. I got two hours before I leave.

So thanks.(I'll email the .doc file after you comment.) No pressure. LOL

Journal.

2007-10-08T05:42:10Z

I'm gonna start a new personal journal(that I actually write in, like a real notebook). Lately, I've been feeling so depressed, like all these old feelings are rushing back in and I know that a journal is what helped me before. Also, art and drawing helped me too. So I plan on doing some art as well.

Don't be surprised if I take a break from LJ for an extended period of time. I just need a break. A little vacation of sorts.

And time to ponder what I really want from this great big green world.

Maddy writes another.

2007-10-05T06:10:02Z

Her latest : A Million Points of Light

I'm actually scared to say anything about it for fear of what people will say.

So just read it and send her comments.

name meme snagged from jenniferkaos

2007-09-21T22:57:20Z

**special love to my friends who gave me the hugs and spanks on my last post. muchas gracia a todos.**

1. YOUR REAL NAME: Aurielle

2. YOUR GANSTA NAME (first 3 letters of real name plus izzle): Aurizzle

3. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME (favourite colour and animal): Green Hippo

4. YOUR STAR WARS NAME (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first name): Majau

5. YOUR SUPERHERO NAME (your second favourite colour and random thing): Black Rainbow

6. YOUR ARABIC NAME (second letter of your first name, 3rd letter of your last name, 1st letter of your middle name, 2nd letter of your mom's maiden name, 3rd letter of your dad's middle name, 1st letter of a sibling's first name and last letter of your mom's middle name): Ujeodan

7. YOUR WITNESS PROTECTION NAME (parent's middle names): Eileen Wade

8. YOUR 'GOTH' NAME (black and the name of one of your pets): Black Daisy

So here's what's going on in my neck of the woods.

2007-09-21T04:16:21Z

I got to see my big brother today!!! I was so happy. Since he moved out, I've been missing him. It always makes me happy when he stops by the house or by the store when I'm working. We're so Sam/Dean nowadays, its awesome. 'Course we've been bestest friends since I exited the womb so yeah.

And this may just be the slightly depressed and heartbroken little girl in me who's looking for love and acceptance and who wants someone to need her...but I've been dreaming of having babies. Like I really want one or something. I don't know, I keep dreaming of the swell that my belly will make and going through intense labor and having that little hand holding mine. Tell me I'm crazy please and too young for babies. *sigh*

I'm not with Donte anymore, he stopped talking to me. And that really hurt my feelings. Like of course he was the rebound but I don't think I deserve two heartbreaks like that in a month. This girl's self-esteem is so low, I mean its depressing. Hug me, please.

So in a nutshell, I'm not doing good these days. Not one damn bit.

Eff the Beatles appreciation movie.

2007-09-19T18:32:29Z

I could be about to make a whole bunch of people mad but oh well, I'm PMSing and I'm mad.

Across the Universe. It's a new movie. It's chock full of Beatles tunes and imagery and a guy named Jude. Not Jude Law, some...bloke.

And uh...well, the Beatles was pretty much shoved down my throat during my entire relationship with the demon, otherwise known as James Andrew Fitzgerald. So when I see the commercials with "strawberry fields" and a "blackbird singing in the dead of night"...I shudder and wanna fucking destroy a hotel room.

Its nuts.

But Paul McCartney isn't so bad. He's a bit too...oh, I don't know what's the word...too much for me. I just can't look at him and not be annoyed with his little ipod commercial and the suit with the converse and the colors and the teeny mandolin. Ohhh I wanna throw him back to the Liverpudlians. Gah.

And don't even get me started on Lennon. I just won't cuz I will totally offend some more people. *sigh*

A better movie that had Beatles songs in it? I Am Sam. It's completely wrong and weird and horrible but Dakota Fanning was adorable and Michelle Pfeiffer was so freaking hot, OMG.

So, those daggers that I can see y'all holding...throw em now cuz I'm done.

Peace. ♥

Fic: Thanks For The Memories, Troy/Chad HSM FPS

2007-09-11T06:08:55Z

I was bitten by the lovebug again. This time by High School Musical's beautifully awesomely bad gaybuddies in love, Troy Bolton and Chad Danforth. And no, there are no communities where I could post this.

title:thanks for the memories
author:he_will_save_me aka Aurielle
rating:nc-17
genre high school musical FPS
pairing: troy bolton/chad danforth
summary: They had only kissed before and done some heavy petting, what they called ‘practice’. Tenth grade had been another dry year. No kissing, no girlfriends, no nothing. So they figured they should practice for when they finally got with a girl. What’s the worst that could happen, right?
word count: +1,230 words
warnings: underage sex/experimentation
author’s note:i was so against high school musical when it first debuted. then i watched it and fell in love with the troy/chad friendship. they are just too cute. like a teeny version of jensen an jared, but with basketball uniforms and song and dance numbers that burst out from nowhere. fyi, if you aren't famliar with the characters and the actors who play them:chad danforth is played by corbin bleu(curly boy bleu) and troy bolton is played by zac efron(the pretty boy).
disclaimer:this is lies, fiction, the definition of ‘not real’.
feedback:the only motivation i need to bring you the porny goodness.
unbeta'd

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(Chad chucked his boxers off again and leaned back across Troy’s bed, he already expected he didn’t need them. And he was right.)

just stuff.

2007-09-10T00:23:46Z

I have a new header up. Those Winchester boys.

Why can I not find slash fiction about Troy/Chad from High School Musical?? I'm pissed cuz all I can find is Ryan/Chad. Course anything with Chad is great...but I want him with Troy dammit!!

*hugs*

Kripke rules. James is scary. And yay for Dean/Gordon.

2007-09-05T03:05:32Z

I just found out the casting choice for some hunters from season 3 of Supernatural. And for adding in one of my favorite bubblegum child stars, Kripke I love you!!! *makes sweet love to your face* I'm talking about Katie Cassidy, the daughter of pop icon David Cassidy(sexiest 70s teen star ever!!!!!!).

I'm officially afraid of my ex-boyfriend, James. Officially. He called me the other night and I just feel so weird now. Like he's gonna show up at my house. But if he does, my dad and older brother are the only ones he'll be seeing. HEH. And I got to see Donte(my boo) today!! *fangirlsquee* Gosh darn, he's awesome. And I got my kiss before he left. He visited me while I was working, and I hugged him.

I'm working on my two Dean/Gordon related fics. The one Dean/Gordon I wanted from Hunted. And my vampire!Dean fic. I'm on part two now, I think it's gonna be a bit more like 10 parts total. So yay!! And yeah mre_quecky, those two have your name written all over it.

Oh, and one last thing. jenniferkaos is the best friend to end all best friends. She meant to send me a Sam Winchester poster and I got a Dean one instead. Well, she called the company and fought and pulled strings and now I have a Sam Winchester poster headed to me. Can I just say: I LOVE YOU, JENSINA!!! Yeah, my nickname for her is Jensina. And I'm Jaredina. ♥

I love my brother.

2007-08-17T01:27:38Z

He just told me that if he'd been here when J came over to break up with me, he'd have broken his jaw or worse.

My brother's the best.

Thank the Lord for...

2007-08-16T14:38:34Z

+John Waters' Shock Value
+texting with Jennifer and Rayvon
+peanut butter crackers
+working and keeping busy
+Kyle XY
+Supernatural episodes
+Amazon.com
+cereal
+LiveJournal
+Frasier late at night
+ the Moto-Q phone that I'm getting soon
+my ipod (Teena Marie songs in particular)

...cuz they really make me feel better.

Bobby/Ellen fanlisting!

2007-08-15T03:58:53Z

I didn't know there was one! But I just sent in my application to join.

Bobby/Ellen enthusiasts need apply. :D