So here's the deal. From this point on, this journal is...
Before you read about me, this journal is about 98% friends-locked for a damn good reason. There are things in here that I don't want everybody and their mama reading. I do have all my graphics, fiction and video postings open for viewing though, because who doesn't love videos and icons and such? But if you friend me, odds are I'll friend you back. Especially if I know you from a community or past journal I've had. So, onto the festivities, yes?
I've been rec'd over @ crack_impala
in this post
I also have a graphics/video/fiction journal::hwsm_addict
This is what I've been up to while away from LJ.Didn't Know How Lost I Was
Captain America/Loki Laufeyson
Captain America loses his virginity to Loki, what happens next? Loki/Steve. M for language, defloration, and overall for Loki being Loki. Other Avengers make appearances. NOW COMPLETE.The Cleansing Process
After a bloody night, the Joker goes home to tidy himself and his things. What happens when the Clown Prince of Crime comes home... COMPLETE.Plaything
Bane/OFC. Blake/OFC. Bane/Selina Kyle.
He has no type, but he knows what he likes. Bane/OC. Bane/Catwoman. Blake/OC. Other characters appear as well. This is an AU of The Dark Knight Rises. It's not in time with the film, it's my own story adaptation. NOW COMPLETE.First Knight
Blake trades in the badge for a mask. Recalling his first night on the job. A prequel to my future 'Winged Creature" 'verse. COMPLETE FOR NOW.Something To Remember You By
Arthur/OMC. Future Arthur/Eames.
He first notices the effect he has on people when he is a junior in high school, normally he adopted his 'shy virgin' way of looking at the world but he needs to get laid. And fast. M for sexual content. Arthur/OMC. Future Arthur/Eames.
CROSS-POSTED TO hwsm_addict
- Tags:arthur, bane, bane/selina kyle, cap/loki, captain america, eames, fic:didn't know how lost i was, fic:first knight, fic:plaything, fic:something to remember you by, fic:the cleansing process, loki, the joker
Writing Jared/Jensen RPS, including Daneel and "baby makes 3".
Gonna get back into icons with episode 7.02, loving this creative streak I'm on.
And my 27 year old brother just told me his 20 year old girlfriend is pregnant. Im very upset but it aint my kid so i can be happy bout that.
Wow. So today should be good. I guess. I am gonna hang out with Honey after work. I think its time I tell him my secret, my past abuse. We have been hanging out for a while now and I feel very very close to him. I just hope it goes well. I know he will be sad to know I was abused but he can be happy I have worked through my issues with it.
Crossing my fingers. ♥
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Woke up a hour late.
Sucky/stressful day at work.
My honey calls me after work and cheers me up, picks me up and takes me back to his place.
We made love twice.
He let me sleep for a while.
Met his mama and stepdad.
Treated him to some dinner.
Back home now, to post on LJ and maybe spend the rest of the night reading Padackles RPS until I fall asleep.
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Hello LJ! I certainly missed all of you.... let's see if I can keep up with this journal again... *smooches*
- Location:my room
- Music:Saw VI
...for Sam Winchester to be too buff? I'm scared of his abs. His arms look amazing when he does chin-ups though.
This show is called Undateable and it shows all these things that make guys undateable. I LOVE IT!!!!!!!!
I'm putting PhotoShop back on my netbook. So I can make my new header. And I'm writing Dean/Castiel...
Was over in supernaturalvid
and saw a great video that I just had to recommend to you guys.Here
is the video by pbfate
entitled "Feeling Good. It's a great look at Sam/Lucifer dynamic. Spoilers for 5x22 so if you havent seen it, do not watch.
I want to get back into vidding myself. *sigh*
For depression and a broken heart.
I need to make a new header thats Castiel and change around the background so it reflects it, not that I don't love how I just changed around my journal. But I love Castiel!!!1 And I have to get a Rorschach icon, because he's my second boo.
So I have bought myself a netbook and I have great wi-fi connection on it, so I want to say here and now that I will be re-establishing my spot at LiveJournal.
I'm on Fanfiction.net now, search ElleKnowsNot.
Also, still on FaceBook, search Elle Major.
I'm going through a rough battle with depression these days. But I'm "floating above the water".
So keep an eye out for me. And if I do the woe is me thing, kick me.
Congratulations to Heath Ledger, my love, for receiving the Best Supporting Actor Academy Award. Your family looked lovely but it would have been lovlier to see your electric smile and hear your contagious laughter. You are truly loved and missed.
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I wanted a new layout. Black/White theme. Heath banner that I made from scans from the lovely xena_2001de
. Kudos to her!
My banner is fudgin up the layout a bit. Maddy help me!! Otherwise it looks pretty awesome if I do say so myself. Oh and Oscar Wilde quote for teh win!!
*heath!love* Since I haven't said it on here yet, The Dark Knight rules. So all the anti-folks, please just cool it. Kthnx.
i really need to make a new jensen icon. he one i'm using is dated and ugly. i need a hot one. one jared would salivate over.
in other news, this phone rocks out loud. i'm actually posting this journal entry using my new motorola q. i love this phone. it has internet and email and i'm checking now to get my IMs forwarded to my phone.
so all in all? i'm happy. *hugs flist*
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!! [cuz i have been too tired to drag my ass to the computer to say it!!!!!]
This is the episode I have been dreading beyond my wildest dreams. I don't do well with Christmas. I don't do well at all. I cry more than smile because it just isn't a good time for me.
Also, I am seriously considering whther or not I will watch this ep of Supernatural. I just can't do it. I don't know.
I just read the sides for it. Just so I'd see what might happen and everything. And I'm crying.
So there's the answer I guess.
I am just an emotional wreck. Obviously.
Because I cried during TWO parts of Supernatural tonight. TWO. The middle where they were in that room and the end with the...*tearing up*...car.
Fuck. I think I'm gonna go cry again.
Episode review in the works.
Is buying the companion books for both seasons of Supernatural really worth it?
I mean, I kinda want them...but is it really worth it?
Pick the pairing for my hotfic.
Dean Winchester/Troy Bolton
Jensen Ross Ackles/Zachary David Alexander Efron
By the way, everyone wave to my loveslave, Marty. *hi*
- Location:a daze
- Music:Ya know that noise that Sam makes when he exhales forcefully? Yeah, that...
I just finished this lil one-shot fic.title:
every breath we drew was hallelujah.author:he_will_save_me
Sam couldn't save Dean and he dies after one year.word count:
less than 800warnings:
dead!Dean, angsty!Sammyauthor’s note:
I get really angsty when I’m depressed so sorry if you have to pull out tissues. Title taken from lyrics to ‘Hallelujah’.
It's all done but I need a beta to check it for me so I can post it. It would be great if I can post it before work. I got two hours before I leave.
So thanks.(I'll email the .doc file after you comment.) No pressure. LOL
I'm gonna start a new personal journal(that I actually write in, like a real notebook). Lately, I've been feeling so depressed, like all these old feelings are rushing back in and I know that a journal is what helped me before. Also, art and drawing helped me too. So I plan on doing some art as well.
Don't be surprised if I take a break from LJ for an extended period of time. I just need a break. A little vacation of sorts.
And time to ponder what I really want from this great big green world.
**special love to my friends who gave me the hugs and spanks on my last post. muchas gracia a todos.**
1. YOUR REAL NAME: Aurielle
2. YOUR GANSTA NAME (first 3 letters of real name plus izzle): Aurizzle
3. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME (favourite colour and animal): Green Hippo
4. YOUR STAR WARS NAME (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first name): Majau
5. YOUR SUPERHERO NAME (your second favourite colour and random thing): Black Rainbow
6. YOUR ARABIC NAME (second letter of your first name, 3rd letter of your last name, 1st letter of your middle name, 2nd letter of your mom's maiden name, 3rd letter of your dad's middle name, 1st letter of a sibling's first name and last letter of your mom's middle name): Ujeodan
7. YOUR WITNESS PROTECTION NAME (parent's middle names): Eileen Wade
8. YOUR 'GOTH' NAME (black and the name of one of your pets): Black Daisy
- Mood:wax-on, wax-off? heh
I got to see my big brother today!!! I was so happy. Since he moved out, I've been missing him. It always makes me happy when he stops by the house or by the store when I'm working. We're so Sam/Dean nowadays, its awesome. 'Course we've been bestest friends since I exited the womb so yeah.
And this may just be the slightly depressed and heartbroken little girl in me who's looking for love and acceptance and who wants someone to need her...but I've been dreaming of having babies. Like I really want one or something. I don't know, I keep dreaming of the swell that my belly will make and going through intense labor and having that little hand holding mine. Tell me I'm crazy please and too young for babies. *sigh*
I'm not with Donte anymore, he stopped talking to me. And that really hurt my feelings. Like of course he was the rebound but I don't think I deserve two heartbreaks like that in a month. This girl's self-esteem is so low, I mean its depressing. Hug me, please.
So in a nutshell, I'm not doing good these days. Not one damn bit.
I could be about to make a whole bunch of people mad but oh well, I'm PMSing and I'm mad.
Across the Universe. It's a new movie. It's chock full of Beatles tunes and imagery and a guy named Jude. Not Jude Law, some...bloke.
And uh...well, the Beatles was pretty much shoved down my throat during my entire relationship with the demon, otherwise known as James Andrew Fitzgerald. So when I see the commercials with "strawberry fields" and a "blackbird singing in the dead of night"...I shudder and wanna fucking destroy a hotel room.
But Paul McCartney isn't so bad. He's a bit too...oh, I don't know what's the word...too much for me. I just can't look at him and not be annoyed with his little ipod commercial and the suit with the converse and the colors and the teeny mandolin. Ohhh I wanna throw him back to the Liverpudlians. Gah.
And don't even get me started on Lennon. I just won't cuz I will totally offend some more people. *sigh*
A better movie that had Beatles songs in it? I Am Sam. It's completely wrong and weird and horrible but Dakota Fanning was adorable and Michelle Pfeiffer was so freaking hot, OMG.
So, those daggers that I can see y'all holding...throw em now cuz I'm done.
I was bitten by the lovebug again. This time by High School Musical's beautifully awesomely bad gaybuddies in love, Troy Bolton and Chad Danforth. And no, there are no communities where I could post this.title:
thanks for the memoriesauthor:
he_will_save_me aka Auriellerating:
high school musical FPSpairing:
troy bolton/chad danforthsummary: They had only kissed before and done some heavy petting, what they called ‘practice’. Tenth grade had been another dry year. No kissing, no girlfriends, no nothing. So they figured they should practice for when they finally got with a girl. What’s the worst that could happen, right?word count:
underage sex/experimentationauthor’s note:
i was so against high school musical when it first debuted. then i watched it and fell in love with the troy/chad friendship. they are just too cute. like a teeny version of jensen an jared, but with basketball uniforms and song and dance numbers that burst out from nowhere. fyi, if you aren't famliar with the characters and the actors who play them:chad danforth is played by corbin bleu(curly boy bleu) and troy bolton is played by zac efron(the pretty boy).disclaimer:
this is lies, fiction, the definition of ‘not real’.feedback:
the only motivation i need to bring you the porny goodness.unbeta'd _
(Chad chucked his boxers off again and leaned back across Troy’s bed, he already expected he didn’t need them. And he was right.
I have a new header up. Those Winchester boys.
Why can I not find slash fiction about Troy/Chad from High School Musical?? I'm pissed cuz all I can find is Ryan/Chad. Course anything with Chad is great...but I want him with Troy dammit!!
I just found out the casting choice for some hunters from season 3 of Supernatural. And for adding in one of my favorite bubblegum child stars, Kripke I love you!!! *makes sweet love to your face* I'm talking about ( cut for possible casting spoilerCollapse )
I'm officially afraid of my ex-boyfriend, James. Officially. He called me the other night and I just feel so weird now. Like he's gonna show up at my house. But if he does, my dad and older brother are the only ones he'll be seeing. HEH. And I got to see Donte(my boo) today!! *fangirlsquee* Gosh darn, he's awesome. And I got my kiss before he left. He visited me while I was working, and I hugged him.
I'm working on my two Dean/Gordon related fics. The one Dean/Gordon I wanted from Hunted. And my vampire!Dean fic. I'm on part two now, I think it's gonna be a bit more like 10 parts total. So yay!! And yeah mre_quecky
, those two have your name written all over it.
Oh, and one last thing. jenniferkaos
is the best friend to end all best friends. She meant to send me a Sam Winchester poster and I got a Dean one instead. Well, she called the company and fought and pulled strings and now I have a Sam Winchester poster headed to me. Can I just say: I LOVE YOU, JENSINA!!!
Yeah, my nickname for her is Jensina. And I'm Jaredina. ♥
He just told me that if he'd been here when J came over to break up with me, he'd have broken his jaw or worse.
My brother's the best.
- Music:the worst supernatural episode: hollywood babylon
+John Waters' Shock Value
+texting with Jennifer and Rayvon
+peanut butter crackers
+working and keeping busy
+Frasier late at night
+ the Moto-Q phone
that I'm getting soon
+my ipod (Teena Marie songs in particular)
...cuz they really make me feel better.
I didn't know there was one! But I just sent in my application to join.
Bobby/Ellen enthusiasts need apply. :D
I found a technique and had to test it out.
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So I looked on my profile and there is a chocolate cupcake.
And no one is fessing up to fattening me up.
Who did it? So I can hug the hell out of you!!
And give you much love.
But if you don't want to come forward...*lol*
THANK YOU!!! *iz fat now*
nine to fiveauthor:
he_will_save_me aka Auriellerating:
jensen ackles/jared padaleckisummary:
there’s a lot of talking about bad dads and guilt. this is the angst chapter i guess.warnings:
homosexual sex between an arrogant 17-year-old and a sexually repressed 21-year-old. gayboy angst.author’s note:
the much anticipated(could be an exaggeration) sequel to ‘nine to five’. but it’s only part two. i want there to be more. disclaimer:
jared and jensen don’t have gay sex. with each other. or anyone else. at least not that i know of. and bruce willis and denzel washington are in no way getting paid for being mentioned.feedback:
like the feeling i get when i see sam/jared and dean/jensen smiling at each other. pure blissful serenity, i tell ya.beta/handholder: riorhapsody* * * * * * * * *Chapter OneChapter Two
nine to fiveauthor:
he_will_save_me aka Auriellerating:
jensen ackles/jared padaleckiside character:
christian kanesummary: the last time jensen had an erection that he actually wanted to take care of was years ago. chris was wearing these tight jordache jeans that showed the incredible curve of the incomparable drool-worthy texan ass that he must have been hiding from jensen for fear that he’d be attacked on the spot like a raging bull to the color red. But this kid, this brat of a kid with a mop of chesnut brown hair, legs for days and the ability to smile and make every dick in the room stand at attention...well, this kid had a hold on jensen. and if it was the last thing he’d do, he was going to fuck him.warnings:
homosexual sex between an arrogant 17-year-old and a sexually repressed 21-year-old. (underage!jared) kane!kink. back room sex.author’s note: i’ve never written j-squared.
so i decided to ease into it, with this. i’m a virgin to this kind of writing, so please be kind. disclaimer:
jared and jensen don’t have gay sex. with each other. or anyone else. at least not that i know of.feedback:
like the feeling i get when i see sam/jared and dean/jensen smiling at each other. pure blissful serenity, i tell ya.beta/handholder: riorhapsodyJensen took the night off. The first time in a long time since he started the graveyard shift at the watering hole down the street, Eight. The gay bar had a lot of business every single night and Jensen needed the money like a druggie needs their next hit. He was a waiter there from 9 at night to 5 in the morning. Needless to say, when he wore his crisp white dress shirt with skinny black tie, tight black slacks and apron, he got more than looks and catcalls. The guys at those hours of the night were interested in one thing, and one thing only. To fuck the gorgeous young waiter before they leave.x-posted to dean_sam and padacklesrps
I've been enjoying my first season boxset for a couple days now and I gotta say that my favorite little featurette is an easter egg of Kripke saying thank you to the fans. It's on the sixth disc, when you highlight the 'Day In The Life..'(I think) the light to the barn lights up and you can click it(y'all probably know this..I'm just saying where I found it) and you get this little clip of Kripke looking so young and skinny and sweet saying how big a fanboy he is and how grateful he is of all of us. I was literally geeking the whole way through it because I love Eric. I love everything about him. And he's not a dick like some other show creators, who shall remain nameless.
Anyways, I'm jsut saying that besides 22 great episodes from the DVDs the best part is seeing my baby boy shining his way to the hearts of many with his cuteness.
Sammy, I still love you babe. But Kripke wins this round. *wink*
And to my real-life baby: Hope the beach is treating you nice and sorry you have to go straight to work tomorrow morning. Dang.
Okay so yesterday was kind of a blur. I had the greatest cup of coffee ever which resulted in a fast-paced day in which I had work and then I had me some James time.
And I wrote a bit on the vampire!Dean story. Nothing really yet so far. But I like how it's going. ( This is what I've written so farCollapse )
So tell me what you think. Be honest..tell me if it sucks big donkey dick.
And I think I may bug a few of you while I write this because well...I want to and you can't do anything about it. So just take it. Ha.
And yeah I've been out of the jared_stillness
contests for two weeks and I really wanna do this one cuz it's Jared in a cowboy hat. And mmm is that hot or what? Yes! But if I don't make it by tonight's deadline then I'll just make an icon post cuz I must icon the Texan boy.
*hugs flist*Sidenote: My boyfriend's parents found his brother's bong. Stupid pothead. I think that's hilarious. But I'm not a bad girl so I can laugh and then go do homework or something..lol.
title:i’m not drunkauthor:
he_will_save_me aka Auriellerating:
bam margera/ryan dunn aka dugerasummary:ryan nodded quickly and moved down to the end of the bed again. He started peeling off his layers of clothing, not saying a word as he locked the door.warnings:
mansexing. rimming. first time. the teeniest amount of schmoop.author’s note:
this is all due to apostrophee
’s ficcage of dugera. and riorhapsody
encouraged me. so if you die flailing, kindly send all hospital and mortuary bills to those ladies. thanks.disclaimer:
i’m fairly new to this fandom, but i’ve known the boys since jackass episode one so yeah, i think i know them pretty well. but this ain’t one of those “hi, we’re two nonsexual boys who don’t do anything wrongsowrong, we’re prudes” kind of fics so if you’re not into slashing this pairing, kindly take your ass elsewhere. ♥feedback:
incredibly appreciated since this is my first dugera. maybe not the last if you enjoy it.betas/handholders: apostrophee
I'm kinda crushed that I'm not gonna see James tonight. I hate it..and it sucks..but whatever.
- Mood:pissed off
Maddy! My layout works now. Everything. The header, the background. It's all there. OMG. I'm too tired to be bouncing like this..
- Music:shoalin soccer